I CAN"T SPEAK RUSSIAN,SORRY!

Today is just awesome,wokeup early inda morning aaaand watched "the fringe",yeah i know i hadn't heard of it either until last night but it's turningout to be an AWESOME!!!!!! series,NOOOOOT!! ,seriously it's just an ok flick of a series,buit anyway maybe it's too early to judge,i will give it another three episodes and make a conclusion.Besides that i found something i wrote down on a piece of paper years ago and it goes a little something like this:

My first letter word is like my last letter word.my first time might be like my last time, i write my mind out on any pieceof paper as long as i can clean my blinds out,you could say this is me trying to speak my mind out,or maybe just me trying to think out loud.my happy thoughts are like a sunrise through a dark cloud,my mum once told me i had a beautiful mind,i wish i had a beautiful soul so that by the time my eyes permanently close,i would that i am heading up to heavenly doors,but life is never simple,it's never what we want it to be,thats why i pray for a better tomorrow right before i go to sleep,which i haven't been getting enough of this days,maybe because i am going back and fourth like am lost in a maze.they say if you love someone let them go and if they come back then it was meant to be,but what if by the time you want them back they have already moved on or by the time they want to go,you don't want them to leave.
sometimes i think about all the silly things i did,it's fun being a kid,you don't have to worry about tomorrow unless you don't have somebody to laugh with,a shoulder to lean on,or somebody to cry to,But thats when your young.when your all grown up,it's different.....very different.life is like that soemtimes and i guess thats what makes it interesitng,and and maybe thats what makes people interesting....maybe.
My sad thoughts are like a dark cloud over a sunrise,i am kinda tired of thinking out loud,you could saythis is me writting my thoughts down,i know i said my last letter word is like my first letter word but not this time,so as i close my blinds shut,my mind starts to recall memories of times past and present,i smile while reciting words born in heaven. :)

okey i know it's long aaand confusing aaaaand in english but i can't speak russian,sorry :)